overwhelmed before bed
fell asleep on a wet pillow
twelve hours later
awake in the same body
relative identity

while walking along the brick path to the car
i felt a painghosty surrounding my sculpture
i thought, just make it past the mail box
and then i thought, just make it to the car
and then i thought, must defrost windshield with wiper fluid
then i thought, just focus on driving
make sure to stop completely at the stop sign
take a left on holton when no cars are coming
ease into your stops at the lights
drop her off at class, make a left at the police station

too much possibility, forced focus nevertheless this day is death


***

letting go the oars
in the backlogs of several selves
shards of the cells i used to be composed of
lighitting up the sky with dismembered minds

goliath shards
letting go the oars
in the backlogs of several selves
goliath
shards of the selves i used to stay clung to
until consciously sick of this momentary chime

goliath shards
letting go the oars
in the backlogs of several shelves

shards of the shelves i used to put boxsets on
abraham lincoln falls to the floor

goliath shards
letting go the oars
in the backlogs of several shells
shards of the shells i used to steal from beaches
saving something beautiful from turning into sand



sitting pretty as a weeping willow tree
every time you think of me in a tree watching you watching trees
hack cut it down bury it underground feel the feast under your feet when you walk through your gardens
now this is a song i can talk over

a song heard from another room
walking through the light at you
preventing venting by enlightening the heightening
exorcize rites by doing the right thing

pitting everything against a pyramid
to send shivers
lifting a series of decisions
amid missles
whist and bliss mixing in the myst
of life's driftless existence
eidetic light shifts when you climb cliffs
and time dips below the line
i'm tired of trying to ecclipse this
im not sure i can like this
i'm too sensitive for life
i just hope today passes
and i can keep my sunglasses on for as long as possible